LIAR

I REALLY HATE LIARS... BACK OFF... SUCKS... DON'T PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH. DON'T ASSUME YOU ARE RIGHT AND ALWAYS RIGHT. YOU HAVE LOST YOUR RIGHTS THE MOMENT YOU TOLD A LIE. LEAVE ME ALONE YOU LIAR.

Superband Concert

Wow.. today I am feeling like a young ger.. Seeing so many "famous" people. Haha.
Hmm.. 1st, there are 2 different kinds of tickets. The black ticket and the red ticket. The black ticket is obviously for the standing young people. And the red tickets are for the VIPs.. And... of coz, I have gotten the RED ticket.. I am a VIP for today.. Today only lah.. hee hee.

Hmm, I wasn't a big fan of superband to be exact.. But since I am joining a concert that "rightfully" belong to the superbands, I cheer for "Milo Bing". Which was of coz the overall champion of all the superbands. Hee hee..

We are lead to the seats. I saw Yes933 fm DJ Ding Zhi Yong and his group of friends. Hmm, I considered him a funny guy. Why? I listened to Yes933 in the morning in Daddy's car.. During my journey to work. The "Wan4 Ren2 Mi2" program Ding Zhi Yong, Ling Ling Zhi and Wu Xu Ma Li definately made a good start in the morning. Never fails to make me laugh at their silly, funny, interesting conversations. Hee.. Enough of that.. Ok ok.. that's the 1st excitement. Meeting the funny DJ from Yess933, Ding Zhi Yong.

2nd excitment, I saw Derrick He Wei Jian from Superstar. He was walking to our direction.. And guess what, he was sitting right in front of me. But I am not a big fan of him lah.. so nevermind. Just that at the moment, I thought of YH. Thinking how wonderful if she could join me. I believed she will be excited like I am and screaming together with me throughout the show. Haa.. Nevermind ger, next time I have the ticket then I bring you to others concerts. Hee... Then later on joining Derrick is Sugi and Ruth. Oh.. And we think they are together. They are so closed. Hee. Saw something else.. Hee.. will be keeping that in suspense. :P SO infront of me is superstar "idols" and behind me is Yess933 DJ.. Hee.. So strange yet at the mean time so "proud" to be VIP. Haa..

Okok.. I am tired already.. I am still questioning myself why am I so excited over this whole thing? BUT one thing for sure... I feel so much better after all the screaming and cheering. You know it's like a kind of emotional release. This is the time you can yell and no one think you are crazy or siao. Because everyone is doing it.. So next time if you happened to attend any function that allows you to do so, JUST DO IT! You will feel so shiok.

Sleepy.. the rest.. nevermind lah..actually have more interesting things to jot down.. Like Zhang Zhen Yue. He's the reason I went to this superband. I felt YOUNG again.. I have enjoyed myself totally today. Maybe once awhile, I welcome this kind of event. Simply join in the fun. I am a happy girl tonight! Lalalalallalaaaallalalalalalal!! Hee Hee =)

Wow.. My life is getting alittle spice up!! Now I believe, you can make things happen the way you want it to be.. Change your thoughts to positive thoughts!! You'll never know what you are going to received!! Wow... Laalalalalallallllalllalala Hee hee =) and hope these days are here to stay.. *keeping my fingers crossed*

My Extended Family

1. During a wake, my Da Gu's husband quarrel with my Er Gu. They are ignoring each other. No communication.
2. My Da Gu's 4th children, my cousin. Dump her boyfriend of 8 years during his 3 months training in Thailand (serving NS). Being an emotional guy, couldn't accept the fact, try to end his life. Luckily, was brought to hotpital by some kind souls passing by the void deck.
3. My Da Gu's 5th child, my cousin also. Was dump by his girlfriend of 5 years. I think they are planning about marriage already.
4. My Er Gu got police detention by hurting her mother-in-law. A very kind old lady.
5. My San Gu's elder girl got into emotional struggle. Was under couselling at Hougang Camp.
6. My San Gu's younger girl attempted to die in school.
7. My San Gu's boy was expel from school. Because of attitude problem and attemping to hit teacher. classified under problematic kid.
8. My San Gu's husband got into conflict with my Wu Gu.

9. My Da Yi's eldest son is down with last stage cancer.


Samsara... Beside point 9, I knew everything today. Horrible. Shocking. Couldn't bring myself to believe it.. I am still in a shock. Speechless.

Reminder

I need to face it, accept it, solve it, let go of it. Yesterday is the past and tomorrow yet to arrive. What I can do now is try to best. If I am able to solve it, I will try my best. I need to put in effort, effort and more effort.

I know things are never the same again. They can never remain the same. Yet, again and again I fell into abyss. Darkness that instant, became my friend. Looking at the slightest beam of light above, I shall get out of the dilemma. Hopefully, fast. *A side note. Do you ever feel that you are in the darkness for far too long. And refused to see the light? For it is too dazzling for your eyes?

Well well, I need to remind myself yet again... It's no big deal. No big deal. Tame you mind. Tame your mind. It's enough to keep you busy.

And another thing. Sis mentioned to me in a sms she sent. "Face the fact. You dont belong there anymore." Haa.. that hurts.. ... yes.. pain!! Why is that so? Because it's true, it's a fact. That's why it hurts. Hit the bull eye.

Now I am upset.. not because of all those silly mentioned above. I am sad.. because I will be going through a bigger emotional rollar coaster. That is dealing with death. Sometimes it's ironic how death affects me. Someone who is not close to me somehow became someone I would like to love and share little moments. I wished lah.. Actually all started with mum.. She start telling me bit by bit each day little stories and sharing with me the little moments she spent with her nephew, my cousin.

I am sorry I cannot help with with anything for one day it will happen to me too. It's inevitable. But I would like to tell you. You've been brave. You really had. I am proud of you.

And KM...
There are so many things better left unsaid. Even if people misunderstands you. Nevermind about that. Because somehow, someday.... maybe someone will wave a wand and do something magical. Heee... *too much harry potter*

*Look Forward*

Sometimes, I wonder, wonder and wonder. Thinking, thinking and thinking.. Wishing, wishing and wishing.. Hoping, hoping and hoping... Seeems no longer important.. or should I say... it's getting less important. Each day you live with lesser expectation, lead a more self enriching life. Suddenly you will realised, it's not difficult at all. Maybe most of you are correct. Time heals. But I think it take more courage for myself to recongize the fact that things can never be the same again. I am not sad. Just feeling relax for some time. I dont know when will be the next moment that something will trigger my emotional switch that is going to get me me a free roller coaster ride again.. Till then, I am Er emm... *Keeping my fingers crossed* Hee...

Life can be simple.. Yes.. to me right now. I should be thankful I am still breathing. *Inhale deeply with you nose, exhale slowly and long using your mouth* Do you feel better? Positive thinking is really important. How can I help myself? I have came up with a list..

a) Listen to happy music or Richard Clayderman or try to "pun pi pi".
b) Eat an Apple. (It's amazing how apple can make one feeling happy and delighted)
c) Draw.
d) Treat youself Strawberry Shortcake.
e) Shopping at Supermarket.
f) Looking at aeroplanes sitting at the viewing mall is so relaxing.
g) Reject people. Say No.
h) Watch Kang1 Xi1 Lai2 Le4
i) Soak your foot in warm water
j) Eat durian.
k) Colours. Be colourful and it's a must to include Green coz it's a comfortable colour to make it complete.
l) Watch/Read Harry Potter.
m) Clean your house.
n) Drink bubble tea / MacDonald's Milkshake.
o) Read Kenny Sia (www.kennysia.com)
p) Organize your photos and create a beautiful album.
q) Eat Yami yourget ice-cream.
r) Visit website www.flickr.com (Beautiful Pictures *Love*)
s) Spend a day in broders.
t) Call a long distanced friend
u) Clear your mobile phone book - Rename their names. Eg: Sally becomes Scary, Matthew become Maltese.
v) Make my dog angry!! Haa!
w) Take a stroll
x) zZzzZZZZzzzzzzz
y) ZZZZzzzzzZZZZZZZzzzz
z) ZZZZzzzzzZZZzzzzZZzzzzzzZZzzzzz

Haha... So silly. I felt silly. >.< Haa.

Shall make plans to go back to this place again
*Beautiful* The Misty Morning~

Nice

You cannot run away from weakness. You must sometimes fight it out or perish; and if that be so, why not now, and where you stand? - Robert Louis Stevenson

.LIfe.

Someone reminded me something.

A "no" can mean no for now.
A " yes" can mean yes for now.
Yet, "no" can never remain as no.
And "yes" can never remain as yes.
This is life. This is impermance.

Lead your life. Protect youself. Be helpful but don't let people hurt or miss use you to an extend you can not bear...

How true.

"It is important that you can be happy with yourself and be able to show yourself to your teacher." >> Well said. :)

Thanks. :) You have gaven me a precious lesson.