Decisions

Only you can help yourself. Support comes from friends and people around you. When decision is made, there is no wrong or right decision, clever or silly action but it is the genuinely treating yourself right. Decision to treat yourself good or bad is in the hand of yours.

KM, dont look yourself in such a superficial way that you can convince to deceive your feelings.

Confidence...

I am just wondering.. and thinking.. how confident can one be? How one can build one's confidence and become more confident. Losing confidence each day while people around me mentioned that I am feeling more confident each day. Is it because of the mask that I've been wearing? Or is it because that someone have already see through my thoughts? That someone can be so sure.

I am affected by this issue. I felt weak suddenly. After so long... so long. I realised that what that someone said is still in my head. Choose to ignore it for so long and today, finally... I let it out. Maybe like i always say.. Things are becoming better each day when I can start sharing. Is it really this case or all along, I am trying to assure myself that things will be all right.. EVENTUALLY.

Words have been such powerful weapon. It stabbed me deep deep inside with blood gushing out at such speed. When the wound start to heal with scar surfacing, the words seemed to posses never ending power. It will never fail to make a few round before it tear your valunable scar and make it bleed again.

And yes.. that is how confident you have been. Confident in hurting others. Are you smiling evily at this moment??

Maybe I should be thankful that you did not pour salt over it? Ha. Bet that I must have been the most silly people to stand right in front of you to bear that stab. How wonderful!!