Dunno what's wrong with me lately. -sigh-
Break Away
Grew up in a small town,
And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stare out my window.
Dreaming of what could be,
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray.
Try not to reach out,
But when I tried to speak out,
Felt like no one could hear me.
Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here.
So I'd pray,I could break away.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky,
And I'll make a wish,
take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Wanna feel the warm breeze,
Sleep under a palm tree,
Feel the rush of the ocean,
Get onboard a fast train,
Travel on a jetplane,
Fall away, and break away.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
But I won't forget the place I come from.
It is cold in here. My fingers are already feeling numb. And there is a possiblity that i will start screaming any second now.
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Note the difference..
Recently, had a so called "sms conversation" with two person. Both of them are so called "boss".
My sms : Can you just let me OFF, I am on leave today!
Boss 1 replied : Never!!!
Boss 2 replied : Ok la. Dont cry lo!
Haha.. just wondering how can pple think so differently? As in both are trying to encourage you but in a different way!! Hmm, this might not make sense to you. Because you dont know the eariler sms from them. But just feel so strange and maybe funny about the way people react to the same question. Which one would you prefer? Boss 1 or Boss 2 reply? If I were to choose, it would be difficult. Both of them have very different character.. The only same character is.. Both are "nice" people. Maybe I should say can be very nice people.
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Can someone bring me back to United Square? I hate the idea having to stay over in Far Eastern Bank Building. ESP. in the afternoon.. where I will be ALONE!! Yes.. ALONE with those stupid phone calls. ALONE. It's not that I dont wanna be at main office. But how come after about 1 mth plus there people are still asking me. "Why are you still in here?" I just felt so not welcome there. I feel like telling off straight to their faces.. but I can't Just feel like them? "How on earth would I know? I'm not those freaking managers who can determine if I stay or I leave. AND can you guys just stopped asking me the same question for this whole month?" *turn my back and walk away* Haha.. thought that was very silly?
BUT over with things that are upsetting.. In the morning, I always look forward going to office. Because I will get to see Jenny. Jenny is someone who is really nice in office. She can make my day. She's mother with 2 children. She is so caring. Ah... all of you wouldn't know unless you have been in contact with her. Thank you Jenny. I realised that when I am not in office, I would wonder, are you coping well? And I PROMISE.. I will leave only when we hand all the things over to the new officer. And till then, we'll be working together hand in hand. That's my promise. Unless... I am asked to leave.. then.. till then, I cant do anything.
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How am I feeling now? Hmm.. I am all right. I am okay. I am just someone who is trying to control her mind like what sista mentioned some days ago. And I realise I am feeling more brave now. And I dare to dream alittle. I no longer lived in sheds of broken dreams..
However, I will still smile over the simplest things. This should be the way isn't it?
