This might be the reason... hero lies within us.. and we will never be defeated.. even if it does, at the end of the day, we will always announced victory!!!!

.Hero.

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in YOU

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Move on... Dont live the past.. It is really amazing how thoughts changes here and now..

I am tired.. what about you guys out there? How's life? I miss those times... where happiness is so simple.. where everything is so dan1 chun2.

I know I cannot go back to the past and I should look beyond.. Well well well... Jia you ah!!

.Slowing Down?!?.

How I wish time is able to slow down. It is going too fast. Each day pass just like that... I had the feeling that each day, I am closer to death. I want to acheive something, I sont want to leave just like that.. I will not be happy.. But I dont seems to have time.. I cant manage my time now. I am just so busy. Everything just come and come..

This is somehow making me feel so pek chek. Since when time management become so difficult? Today I had a talk with Mum. I just listened to her. She talked about impermanence.. about karma.. cause and effect. Well, never expect to heard all this from her. Hits me deeply. She fear death. She thinks alot.. if she will be able to pass away peacefully.. this hits me deep. Everyone is afraid of death.. no one can be that brave to acknowledge death.

Mum mention to me.. She knows that I am not happy working. And she mention she understand that it is meaningless. I agreed! She add on, "But this is part of life process that you will have to go through."

I am confused.. I dont wish.. I dont want to face it, acccept it.. It is really so meaningless.. But so what if I am able to do the things I enjoyed, I liked? What will happened to my parents? They work about half times of their lives for me, my sibings. When they are old and can no longer support themselves, what should I do, how should I react? IF I am to do things I enjoyed, I liked without a decent job and savings?

Contridictions.. helpelssness.. I felt so wu nai. I feel so xin ku.. Tell me?? I wish someone can knock some sense into me. I dont want to feel happy and ok for a few days and start to become very stess and depressed for 1 mth or so...

I dont know how much longer can I hold those tears in my eyes. I dont want them to flow down uncontrollablely. I dont want.. What should I do? Well, I will still be going to work tomorrow.. I will still stay on.. my life still continues.. nothing will change.. but what about emotions and thoughts? Attitude towards life?? Am I strong enough to keep everything within?