>>*Disppointment*..*Sunshine after Rain*<<
I believe everyone go through this phase in their life. You disppoint others, and in return others does the same thing to you. Say it's revenge. Well done! I think I have spent months "healing" myself. Well, I cannot say I am a good person. But since when I have become the devil? And instead the "devil" became angel. I cannot understand. People told me this is life. Nothing special. Well, I always bear in mind the respect I have had for everyone. Even strangers. However, how to determine if that is the respect everyone agrees or look up to? That's up to individual to judge. Alot of things happened recently. Done alot of soul searching, alot of questioning. Conclusion, it takes 2 hands to clap. And to make the lie work, the one saying it, the other party believes it. That's the cycle. No one can denial that. However, lies are still lies. One can choose to forgo and keep their mouth shut instead of trying to put lie and stories together to make it a big lie. Anway, bear in mind, you are eventually lying to yourself. No one elses. You cannot force a cow to drink. This is the theory. No one can make you lie. EXECPT yourself.. I always hate liars. Now, a new experience, a new point of view. Haa.. this is what I have been trying to figure out for the past months. It no longer bothers me. Friends are part of my life. I can choose them. I can care for them, do the best to maintain the value that I hold close to my heart. But, trust yourself. When you are thinking if you should hold on or let go, let time decide for you. And trust me, you will know when it's really time to let go. You will just know and you do not become the winner or loser.
Dear friends, pardon for my disappearence. Because I am learning to appericate trusting only myself no one else. Dear friends, thanks for putting up with me for all my nonenses, my anti-socialness. Haa.. I am still hurt. I have not heal completely. Till now, I have come to understand why couples together for yearsss can break off. This applies to not only them. Friends everyone. That's it. I have decided to forgo this "jigsaw puzzle" in my life and carry on. Although a missing jisaw puzzle is not going to make a beautiful picture, however, to me, it's still complete with it's beauty. Like, one rose? Pretty? Who can complain? A garden of roses? Simply spectacular! But when there are too many, who has the time and energy to care for every single one of them? Much less marvel at their individually captivating beauty? :)
At least I guess in some sense, one percives things more clearly in the dark. Like how you can tell the character of a person best during adversity, or how when you close your eyes, memories of a long forgetten past are seen so vividly in your mind, but vapourises instantly with the slightest ray of conscious light. Dear pple, I will keep my mind and eyes always in contact with light! Pass the light on! :)
KM, jiayou. You are not alone. Jiayou. You still need to live your life and let live. Learn to be strong. Stronger then before. Sunshine after rain!
HH, thanks for being always there. Can't describe how grateful and thankful that you have never left me alone. Or allow me to leave you. You are really all what I need. :)
I believe everyone go through this phase in their life. You disppoint others, and in return others does the same thing to you. Say it's revenge. Well done! I think I have spent months "healing" myself. Well, I cannot say I am a good person. But since when I have become the devil? And instead the "devil" became angel. I cannot understand. People told me this is life. Nothing special. Well, I always bear in mind the respect I have had for everyone. Even strangers. However, how to determine if that is the respect everyone agrees or look up to? That's up to individual to judge. Alot of things happened recently. Done alot of soul searching, alot of questioning. Conclusion, it takes 2 hands to clap. And to make the lie work, the one saying it, the other party believes it. That's the cycle. No one can denial that. However, lies are still lies. One can choose to forgo and keep their mouth shut instead of trying to put lie and stories together to make it a big lie. Anway, bear in mind, you are eventually lying to yourself. No one elses. You cannot force a cow to drink. This is the theory. No one can make you lie. EXECPT yourself.. I always hate liars. Now, a new experience, a new point of view. Haa.. this is what I have been trying to figure out for the past months. It no longer bothers me. Friends are part of my life. I can choose them. I can care for them, do the best to maintain the value that I hold close to my heart. But, trust yourself. When you are thinking if you should hold on or let go, let time decide for you. And trust me, you will know when it's really time to let go. You will just know and you do not become the winner or loser.
Dear friends, pardon for my disappearence. Because I am learning to appericate trusting only myself no one else. Dear friends, thanks for putting up with me for all my nonenses, my anti-socialness. Haa.. I am still hurt. I have not heal completely. Till now, I have come to understand why couples together for yearsss can break off. This applies to not only them. Friends everyone. That's it. I have decided to forgo this "jigsaw puzzle" in my life and carry on. Although a missing jisaw puzzle is not going to make a beautiful picture, however, to me, it's still complete with it's beauty. Like, one rose? Pretty? Who can complain? A garden of roses? Simply spectacular! But when there are too many, who has the time and energy to care for every single one of them? Much less marvel at their individually captivating beauty? :)
At least I guess in some sense, one percives things more clearly in the dark. Like how you can tell the character of a person best during adversity, or how when you close your eyes, memories of a long forgetten past are seen so vividly in your mind, but vapourises instantly with the slightest ray of conscious light. Dear pple, I will keep my mind and eyes always in contact with light! Pass the light on! :)
KM, jiayou. You are not alone. Jiayou. You still need to live your life and let live. Learn to be strong. Stronger then before. Sunshine after rain!
HH, thanks for being always there. Can't describe how grateful and thankful that you have never left me alone. Or allow me to leave you. You are really all what I need. :)
