Reminder

I need to face it, accept it, solve it, let go of it. Yesterday is the past and tomorrow yet to arrive. What I can do now is try to best. If I am able to solve it, I will try my best. I need to put in effort, effort and more effort.

I know things are never the same again. They can never remain the same. Yet, again and again I fell into abyss. Darkness that instant, became my friend. Looking at the slightest beam of light above, I shall get out of the dilemma. Hopefully, fast. *A side note. Do you ever feel that you are in the darkness for far too long. And refused to see the light? For it is too dazzling for your eyes?

Well well, I need to remind myself yet again... It's no big deal. No big deal. Tame you mind. Tame your mind. It's enough to keep you busy.

And another thing. Sis mentioned to me in a sms she sent. "Face the fact. You dont belong there anymore." Haa.. that hurts.. ... yes.. pain!! Why is that so? Because it's true, it's a fact. That's why it hurts. Hit the bull eye.

Now I am upset.. not because of all those silly mentioned above. I am sad.. because I will be going through a bigger emotional rollar coaster. That is dealing with death. Sometimes it's ironic how death affects me. Someone who is not close to me somehow became someone I would like to love and share little moments. I wished lah.. Actually all started with mum.. She start telling me bit by bit each day little stories and sharing with me the little moments she spent with her nephew, my cousin.

I am sorry I cannot help with with anything for one day it will happen to me too. It's inevitable. But I would like to tell you. You've been brave. You really had. I am proud of you.

And KM...
There are so many things better left unsaid. Even if people misunderstands you. Nevermind about that. Because somehow, someday.... maybe someone will wave a wand and do something magical. Heee... *too much harry potter*

*Look Forward*

Sometimes, I wonder, wonder and wonder. Thinking, thinking and thinking.. Wishing, wishing and wishing.. Hoping, hoping and hoping... Seeems no longer important.. or should I say... it's getting less important. Each day you live with lesser expectation, lead a more self enriching life. Suddenly you will realised, it's not difficult at all. Maybe most of you are correct. Time heals. But I think it take more courage for myself to recongize the fact that things can never be the same again. I am not sad. Just feeling relax for some time. I dont know when will be the next moment that something will trigger my emotional switch that is going to get me me a free roller coaster ride again.. Till then, I am Er emm... *Keeping my fingers crossed* Hee...

Life can be simple.. Yes.. to me right now. I should be thankful I am still breathing. *Inhale deeply with you nose, exhale slowly and long using your mouth* Do you feel better? Positive thinking is really important. How can I help myself? I have came up with a list..

a) Listen to happy music or Richard Clayderman or try to "pun pi pi".
b) Eat an Apple. (It's amazing how apple can make one feeling happy and delighted)
c) Draw.
d) Treat youself Strawberry Shortcake.
e) Shopping at Supermarket.
f) Looking at aeroplanes sitting at the viewing mall is so relaxing.
g) Reject people. Say No.
h) Watch Kang1 Xi1 Lai2 Le4
i) Soak your foot in warm water
j) Eat durian.
k) Colours. Be colourful and it's a must to include Green coz it's a comfortable colour to make it complete.
l) Watch/Read Harry Potter.
m) Clean your house.
n) Drink bubble tea / MacDonald's Milkshake.
o) Read Kenny Sia (www.kennysia.com)
p) Organize your photos and create a beautiful album.
q) Eat Yami yourget ice-cream.
r) Visit website www.flickr.com (Beautiful Pictures *Love*)
s) Spend a day in broders.
t) Call a long distanced friend
u) Clear your mobile phone book - Rename their names. Eg: Sally becomes Scary, Matthew become Maltese.
v) Make my dog angry!! Haa!
w) Take a stroll
x) zZzzZZZZzzzzzzz
y) ZZZZzzzzzZZZZZZZzzzz
z) ZZZZzzzzzZZZzzzzZZzzzzzzZZzzzzz

Haha... So silly. I felt silly. >.< Haa.

Shall make plans to go back to this place again
*Beautiful* The Misty Morning~