Yet again, what or who really change?!?

Well, you might heard me say afew times already.. asking this question. Why everything change within such a short period of time? or you might heard me ask.. Why this and that change so much? Suddenly struck me...

They change or I change? Well, why is it things I can accept in the past become so unbearable to me within such a short period of time. What is really wrong?!? Did I really change so much that I actually neglect the fact that I really change?!? Why do I take so long to realise this? Or should I put it in a more general way to make myself feel alittle better? Everyone have changed. Everything have changed!

Yes.. this is a simple fact that I cannot denied. Maybe I should "open" up alittle more.. and accept things as they are, gracefully. It might be another phase of my life that I need to go through or go through again... Yes... no doubt...

Yet.... Again...

I should remind myself that everything is bound to change.. yes including oneself. I shall start to get ready for everything.. that is bound to arise unexpectedly or.. You know..? All right, I dont want to plan a fix route just because I want to achieve what I want in life. Because, something, somehow will pop up unexpectedly. You will be caught off by surprise! The future, who can be sure?

Heee... Don't be mistaken, I am not feeling sad or silly this time.. Just.. dont know..neutural? Maybe? Perhaps?

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Who say that when one did not ask question, one is not learning? Can’t they keep it inside? Can’t they just simply have the faith that keep them going an eventually understand a little bit by bit until one understand completely? How can one be so sure about another one not practicing? What is practice? All about asking questions? About taming one’s thought or one’s mind? To eliminate "I"?

Above all, what is the correct one then? I am unsure. All along I thought we should watch our thoughts, they arise and eventually you will see "them" in action if not properly tame. Well, I can’t say I am only focusing on how to tame my mind.. However, things are not so easy. Well, well, well, I am caught in between again. Have tons of question however, how and where should I seek for answers? I’m feeling that I am not in the least in a position to ask. Who is able to help me?

Something to ponder…
I believe most of you heard that our thoughts are like water in the open sea. Only when deep down at the sea bay, everything is so firm so stable. I start questioning. I might be wrong. However, I just feel like sharing. My thought, water is just water. You can’t say it doesn’t exist simple because it does exist. You may name it with whatever you want. It’s doesn’t matter. However, If are thoughts are like water, why do we have to bother where or at which level where our thoughts are stable? Water is just water, it’s interference that cause water to move. Thoughts are just thoughts and water is just water. I can’t say they real because they are not. BUT, I can’t say they are fake BECAUSE I see them here and now. Something not to be help in one hands. BUT it’s THERE! Simply there! Fine, km is getting confused and… yet, back to the beginning altogether…
How should I react? How should I learn? How do I know what I am thinking is right or wrong? Maybe, in the 1st place, I should not ask myself so much questions. Since… …