Brand New Month?
Well, I think I spent my last month complaining and complaining. It's not that I wanted to. However, I just dont feel like controling what I am complaining. I complain about the whole world. I become very short tempered esp towards work. I hate going to work. I hate everything. YES everything associate with work That's the level of complaints. This is bad enough. For I realise work is no longer something to enrich you but a routine you have to follow in daily life. I went through horrible weeks. Became anti social to the extremes. I want to hide within my comfort zone. I dont wish people to disturb me. Rejection surface. I have learnt to be mean. To everyone. I learnt to say no. I demand things to be in my way. I became a stranger to self. I dont regret all my actions. Infact, I seriously dont think I am wrong or something like that. KM tried all the wrong ways to heal herself. Results? Like that lor. Nothing much seems to change. She still leads her life. just less optimistic. The above mentioned is me.
Dont think you understand me. For you DO NOT and WILL NEVER understand. Leave me with space. So I will not feel so bad. Of coz, I am not telling the world I am in my anti social mood. Just I want to be alone. I am well and fine. I will talk if I feel like, will laugh when I feel like. Will do crazy things if I feel like. I am just trying to embrace the feeling of annoyness, anger etc.. They will pass.. eventually.
Shit... I got that horrible cough again. Took me like months and months and months to heal the last time round. Just hope I will get well soon and hopefully will not further agitates my present condition.
My baby prawns all dead. Left with not even one. I feel so hui1 xin1. Not much confident anymore.
Busy busy and more busy. How on earth can I get so busy with work? Working for 2 not 1 rascal is really bad! My wish now, to leave this shitty place! I cannot imagine how I manage to stayed on for so long.
Hey you, I fail to appericate a piece of white paper. Imagination stopped simply. I am in office right now. Feeling so nice. So quiet. That's what I have longed for. *Peace!
Well, I think I spent my last month complaining and complaining. It's not that I wanted to. However, I just dont feel like controling what I am complaining. I complain about the whole world. I become very short tempered esp towards work. I hate going to work. I hate everything. YES everything associate with work That's the level of complaints. This is bad enough. For I realise work is no longer something to enrich you but a routine you have to follow in daily life. I went through horrible weeks. Became anti social to the extremes. I want to hide within my comfort zone. I dont wish people to disturb me. Rejection surface. I have learnt to be mean. To everyone. I learnt to say no. I demand things to be in my way. I became a stranger to self. I dont regret all my actions. Infact, I seriously dont think I am wrong or something like that. KM tried all the wrong ways to heal herself. Results? Like that lor. Nothing much seems to change. She still leads her life. just less optimistic. The above mentioned is me.
Dont think you understand me. For you DO NOT and WILL NEVER understand. Leave me with space. So I will not feel so bad. Of coz, I am not telling the world I am in my anti social mood. Just I want to be alone. I am well and fine. I will talk if I feel like, will laugh when I feel like. Will do crazy things if I feel like. I am just trying to embrace the feeling of annoyness, anger etc.. They will pass.. eventually.
Shit... I got that horrible cough again. Took me like months and months and months to heal the last time round. Just hope I will get well soon and hopefully will not further agitates my present condition.
My baby prawns all dead. Left with not even one. I feel so hui1 xin1. Not much confident anymore.
Busy busy and more busy. How on earth can I get so busy with work? Working for 2 not 1 rascal is really bad! My wish now, to leave this shitty place! I cannot imagine how I manage to stayed on for so long.
Hey you, I fail to appericate a piece of white paper. Imagination stopped simply. I am in office right now. Feeling so nice. So quiet. That's what I have longed for. *Peace!
