. . . Why am I allowing myself to feel this way? Stupid Kaiming... :(

I think I've found it now, again, when you use your heart to live, and humble yourself, not expecting too much from others, that everything is a gift from Buddha, our talents, friends, life, and all, I am who I am, and thinking that people have the best intentions after all, and really then maybe the joy would overflow, definitely the joy would overflow, when you see the world is really a wonderful place after all.