RAIN

Know what, today is raining!!! I am in the office. 31st Storey and beautiful scenery.. I cannot really see far from here now.. because the rain makes everything look so foggy yet so beautiful.. Feel like being alone.. looking at out the window. WIth droplets of rain resting on the window. It is forming into such a wonderful piece of art.

Just another silly thoughts of mine to share... Know what, I always looked out the window and always look at a certain spot. However, today, I dont see that fav. spot anymore.. because of the foggy weather. I tried finding and finding and suddenly felt somehow "lost" because I can't find it.. What happened? Why suddenly have this feeling? Could it be my comfort zone as in i see something I always see then I will feel safe? Should things be like that? Hahah. Just felt so silly over this whole thing.

Well well well.. rainy days are still so beautiful.. Suddenly at this moment, I remember him. I am not sure why... I felt sad.. Life is indeed so... I remembered I like him when I am a kid. And admire him. Now, yet another time.. hits me that he's old. He will need to "go" off. I suddenly felt the pinch.. what if... I mean what if.. the someone who is going to leave me one day eventually? What if? Aiyo.. you will know everything when you are going through that process. Death is something no one can escape..

Gratitude

When was the last time you feel deeply touched by someone and from the bottom of your heart, gratitude swam up..

Althought I know I have been mentioning that everything is no longer important but in a way things are not how it should be. I used to have lots of complains about life, about myself, about my friends, about my family, about everything in the world.. always thinking how different and unfair life can be.. However, how long can this "unfairness" goes on? Well, not very long.. 20 years, 10 years, 20 days, 10 days, 2 hrs, 1 hrs, 2 mins, 1 min?? Life is impermancence!! Everyone will die. This is fair enough to be quoted in life isn't it? Clever people die, stupid people die, thin people die, fat people die, old people die, young people die, you die and I will die too.. Haha.. fair enough bah? So people out there, show your gratitude towards people around you. Let them know you actually love them alot alot. Sometimes, you dont always have to say or tell people that you love them but somehow, they will know.. Why? Simply because human beings have the "heart and heart connection thingy". They simply understand.

I went through precious lesson for these past 3 months. Whatever good and bad.. Like my blog title... "the ability to let go is a beauty"...... did you find your beauty?

Have so many things to share, emotions unspoken, fears that are hidden, tears being fight back, happiness that are not mentioned, the heart ache silently keep in the heart... who else beside yourself are the best owners? No matter how much you wanna tell others about it, they can never fully understand the actual emotion.. simply because they are not you. You are you!!! There are no emotions that are the SAME!! It can be similar, but can never be the same.

People out there who claimed to understand me really well, I would like to say, people change. Dont be surprise to find me different. It's not because I'm different. It's because I have learn new things, seen more things, experience more. I am fine.

Thanks to all people out there. The tolerence which each and everyone of you given me. You will never know how much they meant to me. Those heard or unheard, thanks. :)

Learn to accept and appericate.