.Thank you.

You mention to leave together with you. I know you really really mean it. I can see it through your eyes. I wish I can.. But I cant. But deep within, thousand and thousand....... I want to leave together with you!!

Anyway, thank you. At least I know you really care. THis is enough. Really.

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Feeling so Xin Suan. Tonight esp. I tought I am still feeling emotionally strong. But everything proves that I am wrong. I thought I have become more thankful for everything. But... Dont know. I'm not very sure if it is contradition or....

I really have low confidence!!! REALLY. This is ot very good. Well, sometimes, people cannot be wrong right? Hmm, not two highly respected people. I cant judge. Just now, I was watching a varity show. A person mentioned that you1 meng4 xiang3 de1 ren2 shi4 zui4 mei3 li4 de4. this sentence captured my attention. I was thinking then. Right.. having dreams are definately make one beautiful.. Maybe to another extend, one can live on based on the dreams. What if one cant achieve their dreams? I realised I have alot of dreams waiting for me to explore them, to make them into reality. But I cant.. they are just dreams. they are not real. I cant tell anyone about them. I start to bottled things up again. This time, I cant talk with anyone about it. I feel so distanced from everyone. Even from JR and JY, and of coz SY as well..

This is me? Cant handle this character but posses this character.. I feel so much to talk about it but right now, I cant. I know even if I happened to write out everything, I would preserve much of it..

Can someone help me? I'm feeling that I am beginning to lose everyone. Sad!