You are a Teddy Bear Hamster!


What Breed of Hamster Are You?
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You represent... naivete.
So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.


What feeling do you represent?
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Enemy

I am my own enemy, torn between two different worlds. To put it simply, I am constantly fighting against myself. I suffer in my own contradiction, and it hurts.

Swinging back to reality?!?

Ok now I shall fly back into the real world, and accept my punishment silently. No tears, no weakness. All the whiplashes I deserve and shall endure.
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I felt so tired.. not physically..
Looking at her, I ponder... How could someone get so over work up over thinking... over thoughts? A good way to escape? I do not understand...
Will there be one day when things are no longer within my control and I allowed myself to fall into the hole?
Can I still go back to those times when I am young again? I miss those time.. I hate "now". I dont seems to fit into the moment now. Gone. Lost. Hopeless. Helpless. Clueless. Unhappy. Angry. All mix into an amglamantion...................
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I am afraid of changes now.. When I know that things are going to change, I cant help but feel so insecure. I am scared. Afraid of what lies ahead. I am just like a small boat out in the wide, boundless sea. No direction, no longer own the energy to row the boat. Currect is too strong and I do not have to tendency to fight it.
What am I trying to say? I am all mix up. I cant write. I cant express... I want to cry out loud but I know I am not allow to do so...

Tomorrow will be better??