A Touch of... ... ... Sillyness?!?
Today, I must have been so free after so long so long... Although I am feeling so tired so tired. Howver, just feel that I should not waste my night away like this esp. my sister went to KL and I have the room to myself. YES... To myself!! Haha.. recently have not been surfing the net. And I have no idea which website I should visit. I end up reading my past entries. :) Reading entries for the past 3 years! Wow... Time really never wait for anyone of us. Not even memories..
Memories are hidden so deep within that one doesn't even want to "dig out"? OR afraid of the pain of remembering it? Afraid that the feeling will not be the same? OR you have forgotten altogether and thinking err... this thing happened before?
Reading my entries, I'm wondering if I did "GROW UP" these few years. However, I have noted my tremendous emotional change be it external factor or internal factor... I'm STILL silly!! Haha. On the other hand, I seems to lose something and maybe that something is something that I should have hold on to.. My patience...
PATIENCE... I choose to forgo it. I choose to walk the path I use to "dislike", use to "question" BUT I also know this point.. If I never walk this path, I will never know if I am able to do it or not.. This simple theory, from a 3-4 years old child. Wow.. sometimes, you will never know how things or words hits you in a certain way.
It's scary. I'm afraid.. Afraid of the shadowdy future I am going to face. Tons of questions keep popping up. Wish I had more control over my thoughts but fail. Maybe I should get "READY" and accepted what lies ahead for me. OR Should I say, I should get myself ready to accomplish anything and what I had in my mind. To follow my new found dream? Now I believe, as long as I dare to dream, one day, I will break through the ice and JUST DO IT!!!
I'm having so many thoughts right now and my entry seems so messy. I want to type out all.. but I think of this, I forget that. Well, it's not important... I still walk my own life. No one can walk my life for me..
Maybe my journey only starts now... yes, only now... after my 23 years of existence... Haha.. Beside SILLY, how can I describe myself? >.<
I am so glad "U" are always there. Always so close to me. Never leave me beyond your reach.. Maybe this is what faith is.. Always there but refuse to acknowledge it due to my lack of self-confidence. I don't posses that much confidence now BUT I believe, I'll get better slowly each day. Thank you so much. I need "U". =)
Today, I must have been so free after so long so long... Although I am feeling so tired so tired. Howver, just feel that I should not waste my night away like this esp. my sister went to KL and I have the room to myself. YES... To myself!! Haha.. recently have not been surfing the net. And I have no idea which website I should visit. I end up reading my past entries. :) Reading entries for the past 3 years! Wow... Time really never wait for anyone of us. Not even memories..
Memories are hidden so deep within that one doesn't even want to "dig out"? OR afraid of the pain of remembering it? Afraid that the feeling will not be the same? OR you have forgotten altogether and thinking err... this thing happened before?
Reading my entries, I'm wondering if I did "GROW UP" these few years. However, I have noted my tremendous emotional change be it external factor or internal factor... I'm STILL silly!! Haha. On the other hand, I seems to lose something and maybe that something is something that I should have hold on to.. My patience...
PATIENCE... I choose to forgo it. I choose to walk the path I use to "dislike", use to "question" BUT I also know this point.. If I never walk this path, I will never know if I am able to do it or not.. This simple theory, from a 3-4 years old child. Wow.. sometimes, you will never know how things or words hits you in a certain way.
It's scary. I'm afraid.. Afraid of the shadowdy future I am going to face. Tons of questions keep popping up. Wish I had more control over my thoughts but fail. Maybe I should get "READY" and accepted what lies ahead for me. OR Should I say, I should get myself ready to accomplish anything and what I had in my mind. To follow my new found dream? Now I believe, as long as I dare to dream, one day, I will break through the ice and JUST DO IT!!!
I'm having so many thoughts right now and my entry seems so messy. I want to type out all.. but I think of this, I forget that. Well, it's not important... I still walk my own life. No one can walk my life for me..
Maybe my journey only starts now... yes, only now... after my 23 years of existence... Haha.. Beside SILLY, how can I describe myself? >.<
I am so glad "U" are always there. Always so close to me. Never leave me beyond your reach.. Maybe this is what faith is.. Always there but refuse to acknowledge it due to my lack of self-confidence. I don't posses that much confidence now BUT I believe, I'll get better slowly each day. Thank you so much. I need "U". =)
