I have been very tired. Mentally and physically. These few weeks, I've been very very busy. Actually I am quite glad in a way.Maybe it can serve as an enrichment lesson for me. I learn alot of stuffs and recall so many things. And the wonderful thing is.. which I think is one of the most important things as well. I did the "impossible". Hmmm, impossible because they are stuffs which, in the past, I will have no confidence accomplishing them, let alone the courage to even say YES to them. I must say, it was a preious lesson learnt. The effort being put in is really all worth well when I look at the output, YES!!! How wonderful is the kind of feeling. But I also know that I should not be too happy over it. Moreover, there is still more to life and what awaits me in near future.

I have my fears too. I really hate myself for giving the cause of it at the very initial stage of it. But I tell myself (or rather convience) no point crying over split milk. It already happened. I can't move back the time and be good.(At least if I know I can, I will be real good) I miss school for a long period. it affects my attendence. Actually I could be debared for my examinations because my attendence does not hit 85%. However, I believe my lectures and tutors are very kind to me in a certain way. So this time round, I am going to try my very best. Hopefully everything will move on smoothly. (keeping my fingers cross)

Tonight, I wanted to express out all my thoughts.. But I cant do it again. My thoughts are running around within. I cant catch them not even to organize them.. so I think someone out there might be "blur" trying to catch what I am trying to say. Haha... Pardon me ah! You all know I am always like that isn't it? =P

Oh yes, some big thoughts are scaning through my mind. But I cant say out. I wanted to do something for someone. A special something. But.. to do or not to do? somehow I felt that that someone will not appericate. No attachment haha... felt silly... it's ok.. hahaa... Kaiming you are always like that Silly... isn't this what other people sees in you?

I am tired already.. my back aches only 15 minutes sitting down facing the computer.. think I better lay down and sleep. To prevent it from getting worse. Ok ok.. I will try to reorganize my thoughts and see what interesting stuffs I will get out of it. Haha.. Crazy.

If only I can take eveything so casually.. I will not feel xin ku.. haha

"When you feel like hope is gone, look inside you and be strong and you've finally see the truth, there's a hero lies in you.... you."

Cheers,
Fell off together with the petals. . .